what did I just do ?

I came back from Chennai to Hyderabad only to be informed that I will suspended soon. Eight days had passed in the humidity of Chennai , and they suspend me from work with another 7 days of paid holiday.

What did I do?

GO and ask those people who did it.

I wil tell you anyway. I posted something on orkut polls,asking people their opinion on a subject.It was supposed to be funny and teasing. The people who read it can't even take a comment.

I think they had a very sensitive nerve and I stepped on it .There are lot of people in this arm-pit of a company who do nothing but sit all day doing non-value adds and making ppts, I call that an integrity issue. People with not an inch of morale.


The company management goes on with its all integrity bull-shit.

I was even interrogated by this semi-nudely dressed legal lady.She asked me why I wrote the poll.I tried to answer her question sincerely without looking at her "you know what".What do I tell her?

Your freaking company was going bazookas over freaking nothing of an issue.

Well you got to admit it. She nearly seduced me.Another 5 minutes , I would be asking her out on a date to my bedroom.

I have a boil.

What a pain.....Pain in my hand ( a boil turned big & red).Actually the pain is my forefinger......which is not letting me use my hand properly.

A boil on my hip.Frustrating thing this can be when you cannot wear you pants.All low waist ,tight pants don't seem to make the pain any better.Found a large pant which I had long discarded.This one fits well.I mean it doesn't hurt the wound on the hip.

Lets see how threatening it is.......

Why do boils occur?

There are many causes of boils. Some boils can be caused by an ingrown hair. Others can form as the result of a splinter or other foreign material that has become lodged in the skin. Others boils, such as those of acne, are caused by plugged sweat glands that become infected.

The skin is an essential part of our immune defense against materials and microbes that are foreign to our body. Any break in the skin, such as a cut or scrape, can develop into an abscess should it then become infected with bacteria.

Now I get it ......I got the boil in my hip after the belt scrubbed the already dry skin.The bacteria from the sweat needed no other excuse.Just my luck!

Why me?

Anyone can develop a boil. However, people with certain illnesses or medications that impair the the body's immune system (the natural defense system against foreign materials or microbes) are more likely to develop boils. Among the illnesses that can be associated with impaired immune systems are diabetes and kidney failure. Diseases, such as hypogammaglobulinemia, that are associated with deficiencies in the normal immune system can increase the tendency to develop boils.

What should I do?

Most simple boils can be treated at home. Ideally, the treatment should begin as soon as a boil is noticed since early treatment may prevent later complications.

The primary treatment for most boils is heat application, usually with hot soaks or hot packs. Heat application increases the circulation to the area and allows the body to better fight off the infection by bringing antibodies and white blood cells to the site of infection.

As long as the boil is small and firm, opening the area and draining the boil is not helpful, even if the area is painful. However, once the boil becomes soft or "forms a head" (that is, a small pustule is noted in the boil), it can be ready to drain. Once drained, pain relief can be dramatic. Most small boils, such as those that form around hairs, drain on their own with soaking. On occasion, and especially with larger boils, the the larger boil will need to be drained or "lanced" by a healthcare practitioner. Frequently, these larger boils contain several pockets of pus that must be opened and drained.

Antibiotics are often used to eliminate the accompanying bacterial infection. Especially if there is an infection of the surrounding skin, the doctor often prescribes antibiotics. However, antibiotics are not needed in every situation. In fact, antibiotics have difficult penetrating the outer wall of an abscess well and often will not cure an abscess without additional surgical drainage

No way I had antibiotics.I am cleaning the hip area.It looks fine.But it leaks very badly.

The anti-biotics should work on my forefinger.I trust that doc.........I trust him with ma life.

When should I think I need help?

At first instance of any boil,take action.Action is more important.Earliest the better.It is painful with the boil.I cannot go to the gym anymore this month.

I miss studying for my certifications....sad that you cannot study when your mind wants to...or is it the priority now?
Never mind.

Got to get cured of this malaise.I have it the first time and it is very painful.

I never make the same mistake twice.So, this should be like .......find any signs of this get to the docs first.Never mind others free advice.

Mistakes should be committed to learn.Learning is a continuous process.

Loss by the mile.

I have wasted my precious time many miles away from home on learning new things.After learning those things,you are not eligible to find another job. Thats why, I have started to move away from a desktop engineer guy to network engineer.I have to crack the CCNA exam to be taken as a serious network engineer.

The guys in my company have delayed my salary hike on the reasons that ,the client will give them more revenue in December.This will give them a chance to increase my wage.
I am pursuing my territory manager to change my "site" to somewhere else,where ,I could be given a good pay hike.I was planning to pay for my CCNA exams with my pay hike.I think ,I have to wait for some days with CMS computers.

Anyway,I will be with my parents this december.I will be waiting for an appraisal and at the same time searching for a job in my native place.I heard that my place is in the boom period.I hope to crack the job market,back home.

Trying times.....

Trying times for a nobody.I was thinking about this ,am I going to die as a nobody? I don't have a fast and trying career ,where I had to break my head to stay in a company.This is what others are doing.
You know what,lift operators and security gaurdsmen in my country
are the only ones without any career.They just have a stagnant life,they reproduce and they die.

Since,the life of an outsourced administrator is no better.The manager here in the metlife site is forcing me to have an insurance policy.The catch, he has to sign the customer feedback form at the end of every month.This is called harassment at work.

I get a phone call from my parents everyday,after my brief illness.Mother says it is dad who is worried about my health.
First few days ,I cut up cucumber and tomatoes for salad.My brother-in-law insisted that ,I eat cooked food.When ,I started cooking potato ,I again got a call from my dad.This time was,I could get gas in my stomach.

Still ,I am cooking potatoes.I watch a lot of T.V.Atleast a movie after coming back from work.I find it hard to start studying when working and cooking man.It is quite tough for a bacheoler.

Waste of time.

I got a call from Rahul,the manager who handles the metlife operations.He said ,come to CMS office Amar,I have something to talk.I knew this guy for only 2 months,and I can catch a whiff of what this guy was upto.I asked him,is it for attending calls?

His tone began to come down.He said ,he has a shortage of engineers and I need to fill the space.I couldn' t say no.I asked him the time at which ,I had to be there in CMS (he said he wants me at 9.30AM).I don't care a shit about this guy ,because ,I have to cook food and get out of the house.

I reached CMS on Saturday ,at 11.00 AM.Last time ,he said ,he doesn't want to hear my personal execuses.This time ,he asked me why i was late again.I said ,"sir,I don't want to bore you with my personal execuses ,and we could get on with the call".I got the place where ,I was to take charge from another guy in CP.

I reached JantarMantar and walked till Barakhamba to Gopaldas building.It wasn't too bad just 2 KMS.On reaching ,I had to wait for minutes just to board the lift and found IGL at the 14th floor.The guy ,I had to help was a lean and lousy guy from Noida.We played pool in the computer and saw porn together.
He said,the other engineer used t guide him through the web and even allowed chatting.I got bored seeing porn .

I reached home at 6.30PM and started cooking .I had my supper with TV,then,studied JSP and slept at 12.00 at night.
On Sunday,washed the clothes in the washing machine and had my brunch.I just watched movies and read JSP simultaneously.I drank chilled milk in the evening and bought milk.
I even switched on the motor for water.I didn't forget anything thoughout the two days .
I drew 3000 rupees on Monday and reached metlife at 12.00.The administrator at metlife, Delhi called up and asked the sales co-ordinator when I come to metlife every day.She sees me only at 11.00AM so she said so.I called Kuldeep and he asked me why I was coming so late?I said that I come nearly and around 10.00AM.He said ,that the office starts at 9.00AM and I should be at 9.00AM.I didn't tell him,according to the contract the timings are from 10.00AM to 12.00 noon and 4.00PM to 6.00PM.
The guy is going to come today and I am going to feel hell today.This guy is a calm looking guy ,with an aggressive mouth.His mouth chews paan,bubble gum and spits words of insult.I have blisters in my mouth due to eating channa-batoora on saturday.These are the perks you get when you work for a lousy company like CMS.

I Hope my mistakes soon get reduced and I start towards something worth to work for and cherish the experience for the rest of my life.

OOPs! I did it again.

I know ,that I shouldn 't follow orders until forced ,and I kept following .Whenever,I follow orders,I end up in a big soup. Last time I followed orders the messages in the Outlook Express of the manager was deleted and even the back-up was not taken.
This time ,it is about the SQL server.I got a mail in my Outlook Express that I have to apply some .bat files and import the Master table.The mail came in the morning and I applied in the evening.I got a SQL server error.I called the administrator in Delhi and told him,that ,I got an attachment and upon application it shows an error.

He bounces back saying that I should have consulted him before doing anything.This happened on 27th May.On 28th the printer stopped talking prints ,I called the printer vendor.He came and diagnosed that ,the printer motor is not working.It seems one of the sales co-ordinators had sent a mail to the zonal co-ordinator and this fellow has mailed the same problem to Banglore head office.This co-ordinator in New Delhi called up immediately ,as soon ,I was issued a notification about the printer.
The new tecnology has made my life difficult .He asked me whether the problem is to be locked by me or by CMS computers.I said ,I had to take the real step.


On 27 th ,I got a chance to see my old colleague,Debjeet Bhattacharya.He was before a chubby faced and fat guy.I had reduced my weight after joining this company.But,this Debu had a large tummy,he had to hold his stomach whenever he had to make any changes in his postures.This is all because of the food from GECIS,Gurgaon.Everyday ,all of the CMS guys catch a bus to their sites,and it takes nearly 2 hours everyday for each us to just reach their destination.Debu has the most convenient of conveyance ,provided by GE.GE provide lunch and conveyance to their employees and support groups.

The life of an outsourced administrator is the worst thing that could happen to a person.I want to change my job profile from the Network/hardware guy to a software development guy.I had a call from my manager ,he says,since,I have a saturday off,I can come and attend the calls for CMS.He says ,there is shortage of field engineers.I have to go to CMS tommorrow.Its tough man.I hope ,I didn 't make a mistake.I should have done this SISL interview better.

hectic times

The whole week went from 17/05/04(Monday) went on very well.It means that nothing really happend worth mentioning.The daily routine of writing down reports starts much during the morning and continues till lunch .I usually send those wretched reports through mail before lunch.But, a mail usually comes back saying that ,"I need reports of the last ten days",or,"I want an elaborate report".It usually my methodology to just outwit the administrator.By the time ,the second reports are sent the administrator feels that,the second is more elaborate and more informative because ,he has to finish his end of the job.

On friday,as usual,I was browsing the web for study materials(this is what I do to kill time).I got a call from my company,that ,a company called IBP 19 KM from Gurgaon,Haryana has a problem where a user cannot open his Outlook Express.As usual ,I had assumed that ,the computer would have software problems or it would have been due to patch updation.

The company called IBP was in Manesar ,another village near Gurgaon.On reaching the company,I found that there were many problems apart from which my group manager had warned me about.I just sat in front of a computer and tried to dial-up the remote server from a remote location(rather ironic isn' t it).I just tried using the hopeless connection for nearly three hours.It was 7.30PM when I decided to call it quits and phoned every guy connected with this site that there was some problem with the connection and was not able to connect to the server,due their own problems.
When I got out ,it was very dark with a glimmer of light a few distance away.We usually have a public transport or few TATA sumos gathering people for a flat rate.They are actually people who may have a driver's license or drive this vechile for companies.
By the time reached the bustop where I could get a direct bus to my place,it was 8.30PM.I boarded the bus which was supposed to reach my place,this was the time I felt that it is nearly 28KMs from my place and I travel everyday.
I reached home at 10.00PM and started cooking for dinner.It was as usual salad and I don't have time for cooking anything .
The most lousy part was that my CMS manager asked me to open the CPU and take out the MODEM.Since ,I operate alone he should have given me a toolkit.The toolkit was my right.He even asked me to come to the company to get the toolkit.

saturday.
I went to the bank.I met a guy who had a badge on his breast pocket,which read"ask me how to reduce and gain weight".He introduced himself and said that he works for a company which sells herbal solutions for individuals with weight problems.He gave me his number and the people I have to call to be a member of the company.
I reached CMS at 12.30 PM.I asked Monica(whom I was asked to contact for a toolkit) for a toolkit.Shesaid "did not the manager tell you something else?" call Rahul(manager)on his mobile.When I called him he started to get aggressive saying that I should have come earlier.I told him that ,he never said anything about attending calls .He went onto another topic that I should never make Monica wait for me.I just told him that the bank opens at only 10.00AM and hence I was late.
The lousy girl ,Monica,gave me two addresses to which I had to attend to.One of them had a faulty Floppy drive and in another I had to take the inventory details.
I reached IGL(the place with a faulty floppy drive) and found out that ,they never had a faulty floppy drive and no one complained about it.I just got a little bit cross with Monica over the phone.
Next address was to sify ltd.I reached that place after a long walk and found that another CMS guy had already done the inventory.My whole butt was aching by the long walks.I even met a guy whom I asked for instructions,after much talking he gave me his card,which said that he is a real estate guy.
I reached home and had my dinner of youghurt and rice with ripe mangoes,lithchis and melons.I got a call from the neighbours in my hometown.They insisted that I go and meet them.They can't understand the fact that ,I had travelled the whole day,the day before.I was nearly forced to go and meet them,they are old people who just want to see and talk with people of their own language.
I was as tired on sunday evening as I was on saturday.They had come to be with their son a 41 year bacheolor.
The whole fo the week was spent with the company of food and old people.I hope to find a better job,which required less movement and more of brain power.
Every thing that happend this week was my fault ,should have done the Siemens interview right.